Apr 24, 2021One WeekIt’s been a week since Mom came home, and I’m exhausted. Physically, mentally, emotionally. It’s so hard to watch the woman that gave birth to you, the woman who raised you to be a badass, the woman who helped you muddle through your own unexpected motherhood….it’s …Caregiving2 min read
Published in Age of Awareness·Apr 21, 2020One YearHey Dad, It’s me again. Today when I woke up, it was dark in my bedroom and dreary outside with the rain coming down pretty hard. It’s like the world was crying with me. It seemed to feel the sadness that consumes me today. One year later. It’s been one…Grief4 min read
Jan 28, 2020Tiny FingersThe OB nurse found me on the bathroom floor of my hospital room, crying hysterically. I was doubled over with emotions, ranging from pain and fear mixed with a sense of relief. At 22, I could barely take care of myself and now they were giving me this tiny person…Motherhood4 min read
Dec 5, 2019Bathing in Self-LoveThe attendant guided me to a private room where a steaming, bubbly bath was waiting just for me. The whole room smelled like chocolate. The lights were dimmed. A glass of water and more chocolate laid on the side of the bath waiting for me to indulge. I removed my…Self Improvement4 min read
Oct 25, 2019My Favorite PantsI have this pair of pants. They are like yoga pants, I guess. They are the most comfortable pants I’ve ever worn. I love them so much; I can even remember when and where I bought them. Don’t laugh. But, I bought them at Walmart. My son, then ten years…Life Lessons6 min read
Oct 24, 2019Car Rides and CoffeeHolding onto each moment. Every morning, my dad would shuffle out into the kitchen and make a noise. He would either cough very loudly or bang the dishes as he unloaded them from the dishwasher; whatever he needed to do to let us know he was awake. …Death3 min read
Oct 23, 2019Six MonthsA Letter to My Dad Hey Dad, It’s been six months today. 6 months. You taught me so many things, but never how to do this. Living without you is excruciating some days, and bearable on the rest. To say this house is empty without you is an understatement. I…Love3 min read
Aug 9, 2019Broken OpenLife Without My Dad Who would have ever thought that the sight of a pink artificial sweetener packet on my kitchen counter would cause me to break down? Literally send me sobbing to my bed, trying to find my next breath and my composure to carry on with my day…Death3 min read